becoming aware of the fact that i have pretty frequent anxiety attacks has helped me to manage them and also to push past the feeling of “oh god everyone hates me and im gonna die” any time i do ANYTHING
but that still isnt stopping me from on one hand being like “me and my friend are gonna go to the arcade sometime soon :)” and on the other hand being like “oH gOd i have to decide WHEN to go to the arcade and I HAVE TO BE CHILL THERE TOO”
i was reading like, the webmd page for anxiety the other day just because its been a couple years since i actually looked at information about it / coping mechanisms
and like lol literally On the page was like, “Sometimes people with social anxiety experience panic attacks when they know they’re going to be in a social encounter”
and I wAs likE!! THATS ME!!! I DO THAT!!!!!
@soft i blame decades of old school counselors and therapists and self help books telling people that “pretending to feel fine” is how to feel fine. they got everyone training themselves to ignore, deny, and mask.
a single-user instance occupied by SOFT 🌸