becoming aware of the fact that i have pretty frequent anxiety attacks has helped me to manage them and also to push past the feeling of “oh god everyone hates me and im gonna die” any time i do ANYTHING
but that still isnt stopping me from on one hand being like “me and my friend are gonna go to the arcade sometime soon :)” and on the other hand being like “oH gOd i have to decide WHEN to go to the arcade and I HAVE TO BE CHILL THERE TOO”
i was reading like, the webmd page for anxiety the other day just because its been a couple years since i actually looked at information about it / coping mechanisms
and like lol literally On the page was like, “Sometimes people with social anxiety experience panic attacks when they know they’re going to be in a social encounter”
and I wAs likE!! THATS ME!!! I DO THAT!!!!!
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